My own human frailty irritates me for a lot of reasons.
I wish I didn't bruise and bleed so much. I wish I could fly to places I need to go instead of getting stuck in traffic and having to pay for gas and oil changes. I wish I could learn without studying. I wish I didn't have to live my life by the clock.
But my biggest irritation, by far, is sleep.
I do NOT understand why we were made to have to sleep so much. In my opinion, sleep wastes so much time that could be spent doing useful things. I hate getting tired.
I've told God how I feel about this. Several times. The conversation goes like this:
Me: "Why do I have to sleep all the time God? Seriously. I don't have much time here. Seventy-five years maybe? I'm going to spend 25 of those years sleeping! I don't get anything accomplished when I'm sleeping! I could be working more, studying more, spending more time with my friends...Why did you make me this way? When I get too much sleep I waste time, when I don't get enough sleep, I can't function. Sleep sucks."
God: " ________"
I'm only being halfway fescetious. I really have spent a lot of time thinking about this.
Then, after more whining prayer, I thought about what life would look like in a practical way if we didn't need sleep. I came to these conclusions.
If we didn't need rest, we wouldn't have beds.
If we didn't have beds, we wouldn't need rooms for beds.
If we didn't need rooms for beds and other resting things--like chairs and couches--we wouldn't need houses to keep them.
If we didn't need houses, we wouldn't have homes.
If we didn't have homes, we wouldn't have families.
If we didn't need rest, we wouldn't have a whole day set aside by God specifically for rest. And then we wouldn't go to His house to meet with Him and the friends we have in Him.
And then I read Genesis and clued in to the fact that even God needs to take time to rest (chapter 2 verse 2).
That seems weird to me. I don't understand. He should be able to do whatever He wants, like make the whole world and everything in it, without getting tired.
I'll ask Him about that someday.
I guess I shouldn't resent sleep so much. If God needs to rest, then it can't be a bad thing.
And I guess I need to sleep because I am made in His image. And that's not a bad thing either.
Thanks for listening, buddies.
Currently listening to: Hansen. Mbop.